Why is it that we mistake heartbreak for fun? Think about it...... you give someone your all and sooner or later something happens. Either by their doing or by your own. Either you think you are just out having fun but in all actuallity when you think about it all you where doing was breaking a heart. Wether your own heart or soneone elses.... a heartbreak is a heartbreak.

Never seen an affair in my future
A little lust, a lot of torture

As time went on , the affair did too
hearts were broken, paid some dues

Good while it lasted, fun til the end
Now if only my heart would mend

I will never regret for a smile I did wear
But hearts now broken and filled with fear

Fear of the moment, fear of the sin
Fear of falling, fear of loving again

See when it all started it was erotic and sweet
Then Abruptly it ended but I will not weep

I said I'm  a big girl and I know what I am doing
But this time I was wrong, I fell for the wooing

Not sure what it is that my life must be missing
For a fell for this man , his body, mind and his kissing

Knowing all along it could not last
Over soon and ending fast

But I will remember the fun that was had
I'll smile at the moments , I won't be sad

Little philosophies on life

1) never depend on anyone else for your happiness. When you rely on your own self for that happiness you hold the control and it can't be taken away by anyone else

2) never regret something you've done. It played a part in making you who you are and apparently it was something you wanted at some point so no sense in regretting it now

3) if you can't have the upper hand then be sure the hands are at equal level

4) anyone who says they've never been unhappy 1: lies and 2: has never lived

5) find someone who knows your worth and is willing to pay the price to be with you

6) never underestimate the power of falling for someone because when you do it turns on something you may not be able to turn off

7) remember you are your own gatekeeper , not only do you hold the lock you also hold the key. Never give out the spare :)

8) have fun, laugh often, live freely but be cautious of falling in love

9) be sure that whomever you fall for is willing to catch you

10) never ask a question you're not ready to hear the answer or deal with it

That Man

I fell in love with a man I never thought I would,

I fell in love with a man non one thought I should.

A player of sorts, even a gypsy to some

But piece of my heart he took when it was all done.

He had a past, but don't we all?

Is my biggest fear that I took the fall?

A gentlemen by day, a wild man by night,

Even after we'd scream and fight.

There was something about him, I'm just not quite sure

His voice, his eyes, there was some sort of allure.

My heart will heal this I know,

But will my eyes still carry the glow?

In many pieces my heart now broken,

But my eyes now open, I've finally awoken

The Heart

Why is it we can know something or someone is so bad for us yet we manage to allow that person close enough to our heart to hurt us.

Do we think it won't happen to us? Or do we just only think with our heart and ignore the signs and warnings from our head?

I guess I just question this because I am in a point in my life where when someone tells you they care for you, immediatly you put the walls up and begin to distrust and shut them out.

No longer that girl.... No longer a wife

The time has come for me to say,

So long, good bye, have a nice day

Have a good year, have a good life

I've come to realize, you have a wife

Lives destroyed, both yours and mine

But we knew it was only a matter of time

Good while it lasted, over too fast

Time to move on, forget the past

What was I thinking, a buddy of sorts

A friend, a lover, just sexual sports

Well in the fun I seem to have lost

A life a happiness at any cost

Was it worth it, not any regret

I tend to smile, I refuse to fret

But only time will tell the loss of it all

No longer will I sit and wait for a call

Maybe a different time or place

But now it's over in any case

So as I pick up the pieces and move on with my life

I'm no longer that girl and no longer a wife

Why do people cheat?

I have always been a firm believer that anyone can be tempted if you put yourself into a situation where temptation can be presented. But I guess the question I have is..... Why do people give into that temptation? Is it boredom, loneliness, unhappiness or what? I have heard stories of people having affairs but still loving their significant other, but is that possible? Well I guess to answer my own question I would say it is possible to still love that person but either you are not in love with them or you just have no respect for them or yourself. And if both parties having the affair are involved with other people then what does that get you? It gets 2 broken homes and 4 messed up heads! And do people really think that having an affair with a married person will get them anywhere because as the old saying goes...If they do it with you they will do it to you! I really believe though that men and women have affairs for totally different reasons. Of course this is just my own personal opinion but I think women have emotional affairs and men have sexual affairs. I don't think either party sets out to be malicious to their partner but in the end they are. I don't think women have emotional affairs because their husband doesn't listen I just think they want someone else to listen and show they care. And men also don't have sexual affairs just because sex isn't good with their spouse, I think it is because it is just different sex.

I truly believe that no woman is happy just being someones sex buddy just as no man wants to be just a woman's emotional partner. So why do people do it or what do they intend to gain from it all?

Now I have no idea why I have decided to write this blog but I always ponder the question of why and just thought that maybe if I put all down in black in white maybe I would see it more clearly. I also wonder do men and women have different desires or are they in all actuality the same just packaged differently?